A. Physical Wellbeing-I rate my physical wellbeing
a 6-7/10 on the scale of optimal wellbeing. When I think physical I am thinking
about my body and whether or not it is physically fit. I have been working on
improving my physical health over a long period of time and have made great
strides to a healthier lifestyle. Ten years ago I weighed 408 lbs. on the day
that I gave birth to my first child (son). Today, I weight 260 lbs. after
shedding 50-60 lbs. on my own and undergoing a weight loss surgical procedure
in September 2013. I am continuing to lose weight but have endured various
changes throughout (physically, mentally, and emotionally). I can jog a short
distance in between my long walks now and it makes me feel great because that
is something that I was not able to do before. I now have two children that I
am trying to teach about physical wellbeing so that they do not have to spend
half of their life reversing what they originally became like I did. Overall,
despite having been morbid obese I was of great health without co-morbidities
like most people (i.e., hypertension, diabetes, sleep apnea).
UPDATE: Today I weigh 255 lbs. This means that I
have only lost 5 lbs in the past few weeks, but I also have to give myself
credit because I had surgery 6 weeks ago and was unable to physically be active
the way I typically would like to be. I returned back to work yesterday and
have already implemented positive enforcement regarding my physical wellbeing. On
the scale of optimal wellbeing I originally rated myself as teetering from a
6-7/10 and now have rated myself a solid 7/10.
B. Spiritual Wellbeing-I rate my spiritual wellbeing
an 8/10 on the scale of optimal wellbeing. I am very in touch with my
surroundings and ways that I can center myself when I feel off track. At times it
is difficult to task when various distractions are occurring at the same time.
There is always room to improve. I am trying to alter my connections in
relationships to a positive level and fade out the negative links that are not
of any beneficial gains. My personal values are in place and my purpose in life
is strong-willed. Furthering my education, working on my personal health,
ensuring that my children and mother are safe and well-supported and
maintaining a shelter (my home) are important pieces of my life.
UPDATE: My spiritual wellbeing has
remained unchanged as an 8/10 on the scale of optimal wellbeing. I have
undergone two life altering surgical procedures within the past 11 months and
have to provide myself with an optimistic reflection on how far I have come
through all of the walks of life I have endured thus far.
C. Psychological Wellbeing-I rate my psychological
wellbeing a 6/10. I have struggled with an anxiety disorder and depression and
have been trying to gain control over the symptoms during all of my mental,
emotional, and physical changes since my weight loss. This was a huge life
change not just for me but for my children and mother (they are my only
family). Each day I coach myself to think in a positive manner and cut out
anything (including things like social drinking) that may be the slightest of
negativity in my physical and mental wellbeing.
UPDATE: Psychologically, I am moving myself from a
6/10 to an 8/10. I have to recognize and be aware that if I was not on the
level at which I place myself now, then my achievements would never be reached.
I have down days, just like anyone else who does have or doesn’t have
anxiety/depression. I take that back, of course naturally, everyone has
anxiety, but where it controls you is when it becomes a problem. I stepped up
to the stage and will continue to behave in the most happiness manner.
STATUS
OF MY LIFE:
I am
not entirely contented with my life at present. From a well-being point of
view, I feel that I am less able to realize my potential than most people, all
other things being equal. I am not feeling much in the way of optimism at
present, but this could be related to multiple stressful events within a short
period of time and an upcoming surgery and recovery to overcome. I find it hard
to trust others fully and feel that I have few people you can turn to for help.
However, there are a couple of people that I feel can provide guidance and
support, one being my mother. I may benefit from self-help materials through
personal support from a professional perspective.
UPDATE:
I returned back to
work full duty as of yesterday after six long weeks of recovery after a major gynecological
surgery performed in July. My mother has been quite the irritating person over
the weeks despite me hardly being around her. I thought I was going to enjoy
the time off, but it was the opposite. I found myself procrastinating and
feeling irresponsible and not being that strong and achieving individual that I
have on occasion viewed myself as being. I try daily to remind myself of the
changes in my health and wellness over the past year and that I am still
healing from all and learning to adapt. Yesterday, my life felt like it
returned to normalcy as I returned to work and began working with patients who
have their own set of health and wellness concerns. I was able to concentrate on
them and not worry about me. I picked myself back up again after being down and
can only go up from here.
GOALS:
There are various ways in which I can handle stress
through coping mechanisms. My goals are to remind myself daily of the various
changes that have occurred over the years and how I was able to overcome all of
those obstacles and see that what is happening now may be different, but not at
all different with regard to it being a challenge that I will still defeat
successfully. I will
identify each personal meaning of each change and recognize the feelings I am
experiencing and question myself how I can adjust to each change. I need to be
more mindful and take my time at making decisions, especially those that I am
anticipating in the future (i.e., major surgery, transition in college degree
to nursing and clinical). With a slow and steady pace I will win the race and
it will get done. My accomplishments are viewed as a continuation of my daily
life and not a road block or a destination to be reached. Self-compassion and
patience will be learned more in depth and understanding that it is not
abnormal for people (such as myself) to become overwhelmed by life’s stressors.
I will learn to recognize those things that I can control and those that I
cannot control, and, when possible, will decide on which modifications I want
to take on.
UPDATE:
There is not a day
that goes by without me self-encouraging even when ¾ of my day may consist of a
depression episode. Even when I find others around me speaking positive words,
I sometimes feel like they are lying because they don’t know what it feels like
to be me and have more than a boat load of responsibilities without help. When I
read my previous goals I can tell that I was more upbeat and optimistic. I may
not quite feel that strong today but will work up to it with more rest and
after surviving my six day work week and starting my nursing classes as of next
week.
IMPROVING
WELLBEING:
The
following are ways in which I will improve to improve my physical, spiritual,
and psychological wellbeing:
1. Create
contentment in my life’s situation
2. Make time
to be alone and locate my inner peace
3. Sit back
and reflect on life’s situations to resolve worries
4.
Experience satisfaction for a job that I have done well
5. Become
more involved in a physically active lifestyle (i.e., hiking a mountain, site
seeing), so that I be sure I am not viewing life as a passenger but rather from
the driver seat with my seatbelt fastened securely that the life that I hold
6. Balance
and life control needs to be managed and sustained
7. Establish
and create relationships worthwhile
8. Each day
I wake up I need to rehearse that I have a meaning and life and a purpose
9. I will
accept growth and the dares of life
UPDATE & WHAT I AM TAKING FROM THIS
CLASS:
1.
Working on contentment because I have been very
confused in my personal life. I am dating a new and extremely respectful and
caring individual that I never expected to meet or even feel as good as I do
when I am with him.
2.
In all of my six weeks of spare time I did not give
myself a lot of alone time, but when my anxiety was increased and I could sense
it, I forced myself to be alone so that I could think clearly and work towards
the inner self that is peeling through the layers to be exposed.
3.
I am constantly reflecting on life encounters and
solutions are all I want so that stress can be avoided.
4.
I still feel satisfaction to an extent but because of
my leave of absence from work I feel that it was weakened. I don’t know if this
is normal, but I have hope that it will be back to the level it needs to be at
in no time!
5.
I am restarting the implementation of healthier eating
habits, watching proportion sizes, and finding time to get any exercise no
matter the amount of time or distance. Anything is better than nothing. I get
off my bottom every day and move about life as I am supposed to and more
activities will follow as the seasons change to fall and winter.
6.
Still balancing
and managing by way of my individual capacities.
7.
I have bonded with an individual that I never expected
to get close to because she is of a different class than I am. I found a new
friend that needs my help!
8.
Rehearse, rehearse, and rehearse. A meaning, a life, a
purpose.
9.
Growth transpires every second, every minute, every
hour, every day, every month, and every year. Life is life and the gambles and
challenges that provoke courage!